instagram, mental health, social media

Why I Quit Social Media

I’ve often rolled my eyes at people who go on social media to tell people that are currently on social media that they’re going off social media. Like WE GET IT BECKY, you’re too good for Instagram. The irony annoyed me.

Since leaving Instagram though, I’ve wondered if my judgement towards people who ditch social media was my own internalized judgement for being so reliant on it; maybe my intuition was letting me know that my own reckoning day with the internet was coming.

It sure did.

When one of my favorite Instagrammers and “online turned IRL” besties left the Land of the Like, I felt oddly betrayed. It was like her saying she no longer needed this app that consumed a lot of my day was her saying, “This isn’t important. This app that connected us and that you love isn’t worth my time anymore.” I didn’t believe she could live without this outlet, because I couldn’t live without it. I didn’t think she could be truly happier offline then I was online. It wasn’t until a few weeks later, after I started anti-anxiety medication, that I realized how she could really be happier and healthier offline:

Because I was too.

My relationship with social media began when I was 19. I graduated high school in 2008 with my blue LG flip phone, and my only exposure to social media had been chatting with my boyfriend on MSN. Remember MSN?

I didn’t join Facebook until 2009, back when we only updated our statuses once a week (if that) and checked our timelines from our computer. No one had a smartphone. I didn’t get my first iPhone until 3 years later and that’s when I joined Instagram. IG was officially launched in 2010 but wasn’t acquired by Facebook until 2 years later, so it still seemed fairly new when I joined in January of 2012.

One of my first Instagram posts

Fast forward to 2015 and social media was officially a part of my life in a real way. Facebook and Instagram became where you found out about engagements, pregnancies, weddings, births, all the big milestones. Then Instastories came out in 2016; I remember thinking, “Who’s gonna make one of these videos? This is ridiculous. We don’t need this much information about each others lives.” (Dear 2016 Brittany: who will make those ridiculous Instagram Stories??? You. You will make those videos. A LOT OF THEM.)

By 2018 I had a “following”, a blog, and if I didn’t post an Instastory at least daily a friend or two would text to see if I was doing ok. Some of my best friends didn’t even follow my online shenanigans because I was posting too often for them to keep up. It wasn’t just where I posted the big moments of my life; it was where I lived my life. I prided myself on sharing authentically, being open and honest, and learning about myself while sharing that journey with others. I put who I am in real life onto the internet and it resonated with people. And I’m grateful for that. I truly found so much friendship and joy and confidence in my writing while on social media.

Instagram was a huge influence on me truly stepping into my identity and story because it gave me a platform to share that journey with other like minded people. I also see now that social media was a necessary coping mechanism for me in the isolating seasons of motherhood, especially while going through Postpartum anxiety and recovering from disordered eating; as we evolve though, sometimes we outgrow our coping mechanisms. And when I shared on social media about my  decision to try medication for PMDD after a year of managing my anxiety with therapy, I think that’s what happened. Because after 2.5 years of sharing my life online in a very transparent and real way, once I started medication, the strangest thing happened:

I didn’t want to be on social media anymore.

I cut down my social media and phone use drastically the first week I was on medication, from 4 hours a day to less then an hour, without much effort. It was such a quick change that I started to question: was my social media use causing my anxiety, or was my anxiety causing my social media use? I realized within a few days that every time I opened the app, it was either out of habit, boredom, or a feeling of obligation – like I needed to update people about my life and mental health because that’s the precedent I had set over the last few years. But more then that, because managing my anxiety wasn’t taking up all my brain space, I was able to think critically for the first time in my life about whether or not I felt social media in general was something I wanted to be a part of my life.

When I signed my first smart phone contract in 2012 and shortly after joined Instagram, I didn’t think twice (heck I didn’t even read the terms and conditions) about how it would affect my life, my relationships, or my mental health. This was just what people were doing, so I did it too. Then when I left Instagram this January and downloaded all my data, I realized just how much of my privacy I had surrendered to this app. In my data download, along with all my photos and captions and stories, were all the phone numbers of friends and family that I stored in my phone, collected by Instagram. My therapists phone number. My husband’s coworkers’ phone numbers . And all those stories I had fearlessly made because they would disappear after 24 hours, putting myself out there on the internet in ridiculous and heartfelt ways – they were all there too.

I hadn’t been a conscious consumer.

It might seem a bit extreme or ridiculous to suggest that we’ve all signed our lives away by naively assuming that smartphones and the Google phenomenon are totally positives advances, but I’ve really started to question if being this “plugged in” is what I want for my future (or my children’s future).

In an issue of  Bella Grace magazine, I read an essay titled  “An Act of Radical Self-Care” at the same time I was considering leaving social media. Tammy Strobel shares why she was finally able to throw in the towel with social media, and it really challenged me:

I wanted to leave social media, but I didn’t want to leave the social internet . . . Understanding the difference between social media and the social internet helped me quit “free” services like Instagram, Facebook, and Twitter. Social media cost me much more in distraction than it benefited me socially.

She continues:

“Cal Newport, a computer science professor and author, offered a helpful distinction between the social internet and social media, in an essay titled “On Social Media and Its Discontents.” Cal described the social internet as a way to ” . . .enable good things like connecting people, spreading information, and supporting expression and activism.” Whereas social media privatizes these activities by using personal data to sell my attention to advertisers.  As author Catherine Price explained in “How to Break Up With Your Phone,” “The reason that social media apps are free is that we’re not the customers, and the apps aren’t the product. Advertisers are the customers, and our attention is what’s being sold. The more time we spend using social media – and the more personal information we share – the more money we make for someone else.”

Advertisers are the customers.

Our attention is what’s being sold.

Having a friend step away from social media showed me that going offline was possible. Having my anxiety managed meant I didn’t need constant distractions to manage my mental health; I could make changes that were more beneficial for me and think more clearly about how I had been investing my time. I love Instagram, and the people I had been connecting with there. But what was it costing me? Once I wasn’t using social media for hours a day, I didn’t feel so dependent on my smart phone and I started to consider why being ultra-connected online and living our lives tethered to our smart phones is so common place to begin with.

The internet has changed the world, in so many good ways. But that doesn’t mean we are off the hook from being critical consumers, and questioning the “this is how the world works now” mentality. So what if this is how the world works now? We are the consumers – we still have the choice to consciously decide (with our time and our dollars) if this is how we want our world to work. Technology will continue to advance, and we get to decide which parts of it we want integrated into our day to day lives – and into our children’s day to day lives. I want my kids to see parents who value face to face connection, and have our lives reflect that. This article from The Globe and Mail on how social media is affecting our parenting, our attention spans, and our culture was shocking and alarming to read. Read with caution, it could truly change your life and how you view the internet.

I loved being on Instagram. I loved social media. But after the last few weeks of researching and questioning and really observing my life without an online presence, leaving social media doesn’t seem that extreme to me anymore. All the studies on how depression and anxiety increase with social media use don’t seem so inconsequential to me anymore. The fight to be mindful and present in my life and with my kids doesn’t seem so uphill anymore. I know there was value in the time I spent online, I really do, because I never would’ve started this blog if I hadn’t been on Instagram – and I likely wouldn’t have very many readers either. I’m so grateful for the encouragement I received and was able to give, online.

A few people have asked  me, “Why not just take a break from social media? Why leave altogether?”

My response: why not? If there’s value in taking a break, if you gain clarity and peace of mind, and more effective use of your time by taking a short break, why not leave altogether? I see the benefit of social media in terms of building businesses, of advertising, of creating online community, of connecting people in a way that they might not otherwise be connected – I really do – but I no longer think those benefits outweigh the cost for me.

If this is something that is resonating with you, I would really encouraging you to read this article for practical steps you can take in living less dependently on your smart phone, or considering downloading Moment to get a better idea of how you’re spending your screen time each day. You don’t have to quit social media all together or all at once to make more conscious choices that benefit you and how you consume media online. If being on social media is benefiting your life right now, that’s ok! I needed to be on Instagram for the time that I was. I have so much love for the many, many women I connected with and respect online, and for the time I spent sharing my life with so many of you on Instagram. And I’ll take all of that goodness with me, off the internet, into my real life. Thank you for that, truly. But leaving social media has also meant leaving behind the let fear that I’ll be forgotten if I’m not online, that my life is too small or mundane to matter to anyone but me, or that I can’t make a difference if I’m not building an online brand. You and I matter, with or without social media ❤️ and we don’t need the followers to prove it.

I’ve snapped out of the silly fear that people won’t find me if I’m not there. 

If they care at all, they’ll find me.

-Derek Sivers

Keep doing the work to become your most bodacious self, and subscribe to the blog if you want to do that work with me ❤️

Be you, bodaciously



23 thoughts on “Why I Quit Social Media”

  1. If I can’t reply to an insta story anymore 😉the least I can do is reply to your blog posts 😆

    This is/was so interesting to see, you and April both leaving the platform. I also follow some other women that left it over the last couple months. It has definitely given me some food for thought. I remade my account private, culled people from my following and generally reminded myself of why I am on Instagram. And truthfully, for me, I share very very small snippets of my life, and use stories to help me talk things out sometimes. It has been very encouraging to see others examine their use and find the right balance for them. Even if selfishly, I miss your stories some days 😉

    Hope your enjoying the cold! Laura Jane

    On Thu, Jan 24, 2019 at 6:12 PM Bodacious Brittany wrote:

    > Bodacious Brittany posted: “I’ve often rolled my eyes at people who > go on social media to tell people that are currently on social media that > they’re going off social media. Like WE GET IT BECKY, you’re too good for > Instagram. The irony annoyed me. Since leaving Instagram though, I” >


    1. I’m so grateful for your comment! Blog comments are a thing of the olden days 😂 that is all very interesting, maybe it’s going around haha I’m glad you’re thinking through these things as well, even if your final outcome looks different then mine! It’s always nice to be missed 😘❤️ I would love to connect in real life Laura Jane, hit me up in my email and we can exchange phone numbers! Thanks for reading ❤️


  2. This is a great article. You should submit it to HuffPost or somewhere (I mean, if you felt like it) :)). I have a feeling that so many of us are in this boat. (The crazy thing is how does WP Reader know? I literally had just looked at “screen time” tallies on my phone, thinking holy crap 6 hours on Instagram last week?” For what ultimate purpose? And then I open up WP and here is your article at the top of my feed.) Anyway, I feel the same and have been contemplating even going so far as to give up my smartphone completely. Again, great piece!


    1. Wow! Thank you for that generous compliment! Keep asking those questions, and your intuition will lead you to make the best choices for yourself ❤️ I also considered getting a flip phone and living data free, and then realized it would cost me MORE to have a “no frills” phone plan 😒🙄 just another way that phone companies are also profiting off of our distraction!

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      1. Yes and then there is the problem of Google Maps which I NEED as a GPS! Ok, perhaps it’s more blogging social media addiction I have more than anything, as you can probably tell by the speed with which I reply to your comment. 😄 Well there are pro’s and cons. I do love writing and communicating with other writers.


      2. Did you read the Cal Newport link on this blog post? His opinions on the social internet (blogging) vs social media are VERY interesting! Haha, I also thought about how I would need to buy a calculator if I was smart phone free! Can you imagine? Owning maps and calculators again 😱😉 I will likely always have a smart phone, but I am trying to be more conscious in how convenience minded I am, and not obsessively googling or consuming information just for the sake of satisfying my curiosity. If I really need to know about something, I try to look it up on my computer at the end of the day! And I’m glad you’re here, as a reader! I’ll be sure to check out your writing as well ❤️

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      3. Omg. I just checked it out. That looks so good… I am going to have to read it. In fact your article really got my attention because of Cal Newport – I have read his book “Deep Work” and LOVED it.

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    1. Thank you! It’s been VERY worth it, and in moments I fear I’ve “missed out” on something because it’s only been shared on Instagram and I didn’t see it, I remember that the things I need to know about and the people who are sharing those things with me are already in my life, or will make their way to me ❤️

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      1. Whether you’re aware or not, this post has already affected far many more women than you even know. I was already feeling convicted about my misuse of social media and reading this post brought me to realize I needed to delete my apps and deactivate my account. When I shared with one of my friends, she did the same…and she’s been passing the article along as well. So thank you for taking this step!


      2. Wow! That’s so encouraging, and thank you for sharing ❤️ sometimes we don’t know we’re ready to make a change until we see someone else do it! I’m grateful for my friend April, and grateful that my husband was also ready to leave social media and shift how our family uses screens at the same time I was. And I’m so proud of you Heather!

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  3. Okay, first of all, LOL – remember THIS account of mine?! I had completely forgotten about it until I just went to comment! HA! What a world.

    ANYWAY – girl, you NAILED it. You absolutely nailed it. Love all of the external sources as well for others to read at their leisure. I am so proud of you. And i love you!

    ps “Land of the Like” – did you coin that? Because it is SO clever and every time I’ve read it I get a smug smile of satisfaction on my face for some weird reason haha so good.


    1. I did coin it! Thank you for appreciating it so much LOL if it’s been used before, I haven’t see it, I feel equally smug when I read that phrase haha And I miss your Haikus!! I’m proud of you too and I’m so blessed by your friendship and the way you’ve always encouraged me in my writing! Thank you for being an influence of positive change in my life April!


  4. This is so encouraging Britt! I’ve wanted to delete my account for so long but have always been afraid to lose contact with friends & family that are far away. But I think I will delete it and make an effort to just connect with them in other ways 🙂 Thank you for sharing this!


    1. I’m so glad you read and I’m so glad it was encouraging! It’s definitely been more intentional and more enjoyable to connect with people near and far, but it’s so worth the effort! And I’m so glad you’re reading and part of my life, even from a distance! ❤️


    2. Not on social media doesnt mean you’re forgotten. Because dang I’ve thought of you so often and wondered what kind of cute things JJ is doing lately, and suddenly occured to me to check your blog. I dont feel this way about many people, I’m not online often enough anymore to notice who is missing. But with you it’s different because I’ve known you personally! This is such a well written, wise piece. It deserves more attention than it’s already generated.
      Lots of love.


  5. Hello! Great article! I quit social media on January 1st, I felt it was toxic and you don’t need social media to live life.


  6. I’ve been mulling this over since April left and you said you were leaving too. I can easily come up with a list of why I should stay: exposure to new ideas, connect with family, being ‘in the know’. But the reasons to leave are so much bigger. My kids in front of me, my friends on the couch beside me, the comparison loop I find myself in after scrolling.

    Thanks for sharing your reasons. Thanks for not just being gone. You’ve given me so much to think about. I miss seeing your posts, but I’m glad that I know you’re living you’re best present life. 😊😊


    1. I’m so happy to share and I’m glad it’s resonating with you! And I’m so glad you’re here, reading and commenting so we can stay connected. There will always be reasons to stay on social media, you just have to weigh them out against the cost and that’s a very personal thing! Trust your intuition 😉


  7. Not on social media doesnt mean forgotten or that you cant be found. Hot dang I’ve missed you and been wondering how you’re doing and what kind of cute things JJ is saying now….and then suddenly I thought to check your blog. I am not online often enough to notice if people are absent. But you I have because I have known you personally. I am so glad to read all this. Well written and so wise. It deserves more attention than its generated. Love you.


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